Reflection 2020

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In this blog I just wanna tell about what are my feeling this year. So many many things happened unpredictable and some of them make me shocked. Actually this is the first time I am trying to use English in this blog's post (so sorry for the bad grammar). 

I think I will tell about the happiness first. Yeaah, in the begining of the year I visited my sister's house in Lampung. That's the first time I visited Sumatra Island (very very happy). Many good and best memories there. In February, I went to other island again. Yes, Bali. I went to Bali with my friends for KKL (one of subject in my lecture). Not only in Bali, we also visited Surabaya City for visiting company. Good memories in the beginning. 

March, April, May, June, July, August, September, until now. The pandemic come and make me shocked. And you know, I had many project. Mawapres, PKM, KP, KKN, K3 Sertification, Sempro, Photogrammetry and Remote Sensing Practical, Potential Map Project, Chief Division of Syiar Annisa, ... blablabla everything. Actually, I am not so stressed in the begining. But, because of "not meeting" my friends in very long time... there's no one I could tell about my "BAD Feeling".  

Fortunately, I have some bestfriends. I could tell them what are my feelings. How stress I am. What should I do now. And ask them what are their feelings too. Sharing and telling the feelling (I think) is the good way to release stress. After telling them, I think I am better now. 

For self healing, I have some activities to do. You already knew that I am a book lover and that's one of my hobby. Reading books, buying books, smelling the books. That are my favorite self healing. I can forget everything in real life and immerse in the book's world. When I read the bad story, I will cry and it makes me better. Because while I am crying, I feel relieved and like my live loads disappear. It's good. This year I finished 29 books. Actually there are some other books that ongoing reading now.

Not only reading so many books, my favourite activity for self healing is singing. Although my voice not good enough, but I can enjoy it and scream out load at high pitch is really fun. Very fun.. wkwk. Sorry for my sister... maybe you're mad at me. 

And yeaah... Lampung is the beginning and closing of 2020. In the end of this year, I visited my sister again and meet my handsome nephew. 

In this year, I learn to control stress and emotion. How to deal with myself. I learn to accept my imperfection, although it's hard. And I also think about the future. What's my value? What should I do after graduated? How about my wedding, my partner, my next generations (children), my career, and how about my pension time? I became interested in investment, but don't know how to start it (yes, I have to learn more about it).

Some targets and plans in this year haven't finished yet. I hope in 2021 every target that haven't finished this year will be finished. Aamiin... 

Thank you for all you guys my support systems... 

Hello 2021.

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