Reflection 2021 (late)

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I think my mood isn't good enough that makes me just wanna lay in my bed. So many plan prepared but is very hard to start, include writing my reflection in 2021. "Better late than never" is my favourite quotes when I have so many plan that being delayed... wkwk. 

Okayy... in the begining of 2021 I continue my 2020 goal to finish my study and graduate maximum in July with cumlaude predicate. Because of so many steps in my department to be graduated, I have to passed it one by one. One of them is Kompre. I think Kompre is the "ujian mental" test. 

Sempro (Seminar Proposal) → Kompre (Ujian Komprehensif) → Semhas (Seminar Hasil) → Sidang → Wisuda

Coz my Toefl score isn't good enough and under the minimal standard, so I decided to do the retake toefl test again in February. Alhamdullillah, my toefl score is better than before and I can passed the minimal standard. 

The final year student that only do the thesis (I think) have to be more focus and focus. But, you know.. in my department will change the curriculum and the final year student must take the matriculation subject. Biology, Physics III, Chemistry, Statistics II, Trigonometry and Geometry. The Basic Science Subject. When all of my time will be dedicated only for doing my thesis, at the same time I have to take the class, doing the task, and the final test. 

June, 3rd this year, is my unforgettable moment in my college. Why?? Because at that time, I had to do final test for matriculation and Thesis Defense with the limit gap time. Wait.. I will write my schedule on that day.

Statistics II Midtest (09.30 - 11.00)

Final Thesis Defense (11.00 -13.00)

Trigonometry and Geometry Midtest (14.00 til end)

Biology Midtest (19.30 til end)

Oh my God, I am so grateful I could passed that day in a good way (I think). In the end of Thesis Defense, I am crying so hard because of "terharu" until my supervisors smiling. I said that I am motivated a lot of their quotes so I could finished my final project. 

Because of my ambition for continuing my studies at master degree, I have to prepare everything. TOEFL ITP Test, TPA Bappenas Test, ask recomendation from my lecturers, create "Proyeksi Keinginan Magister", etc. After the hectic days (ask for signature from my supervisors and thesis judge lecturer, complete the administration for graduation, doing all the test for master requirement), my family and I got sick. Oh my God... I think that was a bad weeks. I just lay on my bed, sleep, eat, and praying, "Oh Allah, please I want to live longer cause I want to do so many things and want your forgiveness of all my sins."

After the "stormy" weeks... I am waiting for the announcement of master degree and alhamdulillah accepted. My first class in master degree starts at August 14th 2021. Oh.. it's a great experience that so many dedicated and talented lecturer in every class  I take. I am so grateful, Allah give me chance to live longer and continue my master studies. 

Okayy... that is the good one in my 2021. 

In 2021, I am not only accepted but also rejected. I am rejected (from the first steps, administration step) by Beasiswa Unggulan Masyarakat Berprestasi for my master funding. So sad... I have the high hope on that... But it's okay, alhamdulillah my parents can be my investors for this study... heheee.

Beside the academic one, 2021 gave me "love lesson" that I learned. I am fall in love and heart broken at the same year. Lesson learned: don't expect everything (in someone or something besides Allah) cause it always make you disappointed.

Okayy that's all. Actually there were so many things that I want to write. But I think, that is for my personal only. Maybe I will write it on my personal journal. 

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